a note

dear bloggie ,
when my friends ask me about my relations with him , i say i don't know . seriously , in my deep heart I wanna scream and crying . I don't know what going on with my relations . what am I to him and what is my real status right now . am I still her girlfriend ? or are we already break up ? huhu .


dear my sweety diary ,
I wanna meet him , I wanna hear his voice , I wanna text him and waiting his text , I wanna laugh and make a joke with him . I really miss him. :'( I'm crying when write on this page , yeah it's true . swear to God , I don't lie . I really miss him . really really miss . I'm not strong , i'm just a weakness girl . when I sit down in staircase or alone in my bedroom or anything I do that will make me remember him , I feel lost . yess! that what I feel . feel like there's nothing in my life , no joyful & happiness . all I feel just a dark world , no light , no his laugh , no his voice , no text from him , there nothing just empty and a memories that I only can remember then crying like a child .


dear my little note ,
all I need just the answer from him . are we still in same heart ? he still mad at me ? he hate me ? please , I need his answer . :'(


p/s : i'm still loving him , but maybe its just a memories for him . hope he happy :'] there's nothing I can do